8月を迎えました。
一年が、ぐんぐん、どんどん過ぎていく感じがします。
オリンピックが開幕して１０日が経ち、世の中は感染拡大が毎日記録をうみながら、メダルの数を祝福して…。自分はというと、職域接種が一旦頓挫したものを待ちながら市の動向を確認して。まるで、自分の気持ちがどれだけ整理がつけれるか試されているようです。元々思っていたことや信じていたこと、自分自身の「着地点」を常に忘れないようにしている感じです。
先日、札幌のシアターZOOにお邪魔して、イギリスの劇作・脚本・演出家のデイヴィッド・ヘア書き下ろしのCOVIDモノローグ「悪魔をやっつけろ」を観てきました。なんて簡潔で素晴らしい作品。私たちの、パンデミック化で経験してきた様々なことに対する、複雑な気持ちに鋭く入り込んで説明してくれたような作品でした。まさにリアルタイムで演者も観客も、共通の事に対して、じっくりと考えることができました。
いつかの私は、政治にもそこまで理解をしようとしなかったし、なんだかんだ事なかれ主義で過ごしてきたそのツケを、いま、私自身の中でまさに経験していると思います。私が持っていた大切な一票をたかが一票と思って、役立てない方に道を選んだときもありました。ここ最近の連日の猛暑も、自分がなんだかんだ一人だったら…と思う軽い気持ちが生んだ、気候変動のありさまを、いま経験しているんだと感じています。
自分の軸を、どこに打ち付けて、何を大切に、何を見据えて、いまこの瞬間の私自身が未来そのものなんだと思いました。
Hard to believe that we are entering the month of August 2021…
It’s been ten days since the Tokyo Olympic has opened here in Japan, then it is undeniable to say that we are now just in the beginning of a surge of the 5th wave. More than 10,000 cases reported in each day, and celebrating the number of medals the country have obtained at the same time…sometimes I fall into mixed feelings that our original value systems are almost forced to be shuffled and questioned by the realities we learn from the TV everyday. I personally cannot follow the speed of these things happening all at the same time, while I am looking at the screen to learn the procedure of getting vaccinated for those who have underlined conditions. So after all, I almost feel like detaching myself from the everyday news at some point, and trying to be grounded with my original understandings and beliefs about the world…I have to say it is simply an overwhelming experience.
I visited a theater called Theater Zoo in Sapporo the other day to attend to a monologue show “Beat the Devil”, which was originally written by David Hare and was translated into Japanese. Such an articulate script based on his personal experience, having contracted virus and observations about how people have been perceiving the world of Pandemic ruled by Covid 19. People, I mean, are not only people in general, but world leaders of this planet.
I now, truly feel responsible as an individual who votes for our future government. There were days I did not pay much attention to how this world would be like in the future. But as I am getting older, I realize that future really is led by each individual of how I take action at the moment. Having days and days of this hottest weather with high humidity in Hokkaido, I also realize that it is me who did not care much about the climate change as much as I should have. These attitudes eventually must have led me to feel helpless and hopeless under the circumstances.
So, here I am, trying to be grounded, with a sense of fragility, getting back to my work creating…